Maybe it's a midlife crisis?!

So, recently I quit my job without having another lined up.  I only did this one other time when I moved to North Carolina.  At that time all I had was my school loan and car payment to deal with.  Things are a little different these days.  I now have a mortgage, two car payments and all the bills to go with it.  What was I thinking?  Well, to be honest, I'm not sure.  My only guess, a mid life crisis!  Yeah, I thought they only happened to men.  No, I didn't go buy a convertible or a young boyfriend to go with it.  Though, both of those things don't sound half bad.  I just quit my job and wonder why I am in this relationship that I am in on a daily basis.  My sister informs me that the thoughts I have are normal and that with the right amount of energy, my beau and I can once again have the relationship we had before.  But what was I thinking....  I guess things always work out the way they are suppose to, so we will see!

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                                                 My #MKGlam VoxBox! Arrived!!

                      

                                            And this is what I found inside!

Mary Kay is a product that I have always known existed but knew very little about.  The first item I had to try was the nourishine plus lip gloss, Mango Tango, and I have to say that not only is the shade amazing for spring but it tastes yum too!  Going through the box I also came across a couple brushes, strangely enough, that I have been meaning to replace in my own makeup bag.  

I do wear makeup, but I like it to be understated and for my face to feel fresh at the same time.  The translucent powder was light and covered up the shine.  However, I do have to say that the cream eye color is my favorite.  I always steered clear of anything "cream" because I have been scared of the heaviness that it may create but this was not the case, I was pleasantly surprised!  

I would like to thank @influensterVox and #MKGlam for the box!  I received these items complimentary for testing purposes.  

The Back Story

At 34 one would think that I would be a grown up.  If someone knows what that is please fill me in so that I may figure it out.  Because, if I am completely honest, I have no idea.  I have a degree and a job.  I own my own home.  I am not married but I do have a live in boyfriend.  I don't have any children but my boyfriend does.  So is this grown up?  How about the fact that I believe I am still in love with my college boyfriend?  What type of person does that make me?  Does that make me a monster?  Sometimes I feel like I am.  My ex, is who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with and have children with.  I was young and hadn't found myself but wanted my life to be with him.  I ruined it.  I'm not so stupid to believe that he didn't play a part in it.  He did, but I can recognize now what part I played.  I "needed" him.  I was very dependent on him and the life that I wanted with him.  I hadn't yet figured out how to be my own person, like really on my own.  It's amazing what over ten years can teach you. And bring to light.  I enjoy my own company and the time that I get to be alone.